For the last several hours I have been trying hard to dig myself out of a mis-directed focus hiccup.
I went to yoga but found that, far from zening me out, I actually left in a worse mood. Could be all those bloody hip openings that I hate but know are good for me. Kinda like spinach, only for your hips.
I ate chocolate. This is usually a no brainer. When annoyed, eat chocolate. There is medical research to back this up people! It increases your serotonin and makes you feel really good. At least that was what I was telling myself while devouring it on the couch this evening. After yoga btw.
3 hours of mindless nonsense on TV was next. America’s Got Talent. Stupid Housewives of NYC. I even tried Wipeout for a bit. None of it worked though.
The only thing left was to return to the writing. The thing that got me into this in the first place.
So, I wrote a post about being non-controversial on your blog. But it did little to assuage my annoyance.
Then, I had an epiphany. (or as much of one as is possible at 11pm after a nasty-ass afternoon. BTW, the morning was epic and I’m going to blog about it eventually. After I get to my epiphany)
Epiphany! Right, that’s what I was about to say.
Focus, for me, is about perspective. I was unable to find perspective in yoga tonight. It could not be found in chocolate or tv either.
Tonight I had to bring out the big guns. I had to troop out love to gain some perspective.
More specifically, maternal love.
For me all creativity and focus stems from this. The love I have for my children supercedes all other emotion and when I need to tap into it to get some, hard-found, perspective, it’s there for me.
I am so incredibly grateful for my children. Not just for the idea of them but for the people that they are.
They are bloody brilliant, sarcastic, adorable, insane, loud, occasionally obnoxious and even flatulent but they are 100% authentic. They teach me what is important and, more importantly, who is important in my life.
All other concerns are moot.
I wish for you all to find your perspective in whatever form it takes and grab it tight. Don’t let the small stuff, or small people or barriers get in your way. Remember what’s important when you need to.
Here is my perspective.